ONE

If i were to equate today as something, today would be like a really high waterfall... starting at the top, the view was beautiful... absorbing the breathtaking view, taking in the atmosphere, with overflowing confidence and expectations, you jump... then all of it just disappears as you close your eyes, resisting the force of the wind and splashes of water all over your body... there is no turning back... there's only one way you must head - DOWN... seconds, minutes pass... finally pain sears every inch of your skin as you hit the cold, freezing water so hard that you lose your senses for awhile... fully submerged in water, you struggle to get your head above water so you can take that breath you did not manage to take before you hit the water... when you finally gain consciousness, you begin to wonder how that trill of exhilaration at the top ended up as a battle with the forces for your own life...

Today was like that... started the day full of expectations, finally the wait was over, something is going to happen, seven would be one again... instead, seven was still six... that was when the day leaped from the top of the waterfall... it started to go down, and further down when five became two... and further down when two was divided... why does it have to become so complicated?? SEVEN is not six, FIVE is not two... they are all ONE... seven is ONE, five is also ONE... is ONE that hard to count??

Tomorrow... i don't know if i want to look forward to it... i'm scared it would be bad news again... i mean, at this stage, is good news even possible?? we can't defy gravity... we can't suddenly just stop in mid-air and propell ourselves back to the top... or can we?? in my life, everything, or most, usually ends well, no matter how bad it was... but this time, i'm not sure... because it's not up to me... i didn't want to jump... but i had to do it...

Now it makes me wonder... what would i be doing, feeling right now if it wasn't for them?? would i be the person i am today, or that girl from five years ago?? would i be here on my bed typing this, or would i be typing something happier?? something so small can change a person... looking back, if i were to have chosen the roads which i didn't take, i can imagine how different i would become from the person i am now...

Looking back, i chose the roads less chosen, and i do not regret it at all... because they were all my choices, my decisions... like my favourite saying,

" The only things you regret in life are the risks you didn't take..."

Has anyone seen a bunny who's short and looks like he's from Seattle around here somewhere??
Cause one of my bunny is missing...