Dreams~~

Ah~~It has been so long since i've written in my blog... it's not that i do not want to, but to fully put my entire feelings into words is an exhausting task... some may think that writing comes naturally for me... but the important thing for me when writing is to pour your heart and soul into that piece of writing, in order for it to reach out to your readers, for them to feel what you felt and to understand what you intend to convey... well, besides the lack of time, i seem to have lost my passion for writing... erm, not really... (it's just that i'm really really lazy... hehe)...

A new year... it has been for almost two months... and a new lunar year, for three weeks... and i've finally felt the burden crashing down on me... assignment after assignment after assignment... i feel like i'm suffocating, like i've got no time to even breathe... yes, time flies... but the consequences of having too much on my hands, i have a really bad feeling about it... i'm trying not to think and worry too much, but now it feels like a part of me have lost hope... i want to cry but my pride won't let me...

I can't even sleep soundly at night... i'm asleep, but these weird dreams keep haunting me... it's different every night and i wake up feeling more tired than when i fell asleep... i even have dreams during a fifteen minute nap... i just want to sleep... is it such a ridiculous request? for all we're going through, a night of peaceful sleep is like an oasis at a desert... i'm so tired...

I better go try to sleep now... while i have a happy, smiling image in my head... i shall go to bed thinking that tomorrow will be a better day... and that no matter what happens, i will not let go of that hand, if that hand does not let go of me... thank you~~

-Searching for that oasis? Look into your heart and you will find it... -