Why So "Fan"

haih... guess wat... when i finally think dat all hope is lost n decided dat my fate is in form 6... a letter came... i'm being accepted into politeknik... dis is just the third day in school but i've already settled down quite nicely... i have all my subjects decided n was really looking forward to my classes... now i have 2 consider this stupid letter again... n dat actually made me doubt myself... again... wat if i dun get straight a's 4 stpm... mah die lo... cannot go in uni... haih...